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Como estas, bitches!

Dec. 14, 2010 – 9:43pm

Not a bad lil' profile! The movie list was looking fantastic until I read "Willow".

Hope your having a good week!

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Dec. 11, 2010 – 12:42am

Boobs and ass... you're my kind of girl!!

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Dec. 1, 2010 – 9:22am

Hi! How are you? Am ochai, I live in cleveland,am single and seriously looking. If u r serious hit me back. Am 27yrs now I want to find a soulmate to settle down with.

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And the lord said, "Let there be jannypie"

Nov. 25, 2010 – 10:26am

Hey there,

Your wit is sharper than a sword, and that is perhaps one of the sexiest things someone can have. Plus, you have a cute smile.

Please keep up the good work of being awesome.

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hii

Nov. 20, 2010 – 6:35pm

ur real pretty lady .. wanna hang out sometime and get to know each other a lil better ??? .. since ur pretty lady and i m hoping for you to be as pretty in nature as ur by look ....soo i wanna try to give it a shot .. thnx

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• undecided

  Dec. 4, 2010 – 12:32am

  So do your adoring worshippers wear matching robes/jump suites or is the dress code pretty loose? Personally I had to let alot of my minions go due to the economy.

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  Dec. 4, 2010 – 2:44pm

  Think more along "loincloths, togas and fanning me with palm fronds". A nice white sheet is acceptable.
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  Dec. 4, 2010 – 4:14pm

  That doesn't sound very good for all seasons. I like to have something that they could wear all year long. As for the white sheet are your followers ghosts?
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  Dec. 5, 2010 – 8:22pm

  No, the white sheet is for the ones who can't spring for a real toga.
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  Dec. 6, 2010 – 9:37am

  Maybe you should rethink your dress code, togas are so B.C. We live in Ohio not a tropical island vaolcanoe lair. I am sure they complain.
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  Dec. 7, 2010 – 9:59am

  adoring worshippers do not complain

the want list

Funny.
Is not jealous.
Does not talk over others.
Doesn't play games.
Considerate.
Communicative.
Gentle in the streets.
Liberal.
Gives back rubs.
Respects me. Thinks I'm capable.
Openminded.
Humble.
Intelligent.
Challenges me.
Fair.
Can apologize.

Someday I will be wanted. Not only conveniently, secondly or eventually. I will be passionately, primarily, WANTED.


I can wait.


I'm worth it.

The songbirds beyond my window
Have all gone for the winter
But I woke to singing regardless
It was your voice, it was our song, it was in my head

silly introverts

"If you don't know what an Introvert is thinking or feeling, "It's because you haven't asked...checked in." And when Introverts say something, listen closely. They may look "quiet," but they're communicating-processing inside constantly. So they say what they mean...because they've given it a lot of thought. "


 "I am an introvert who has learned that to be successful, I must master the social skills."


I hate the phone because I am an introvert.

"I’m an introvert. Go ahead. Debate me on it. Most don’t believe me. But it’s true. When I was a kid, my mom used to make me call to order pizza because I was so terrified of the phone (for those of you who call me, you’ll understand I’m still terrified)."

"Yes, I’m an introvert with super high social skills, but an introvert, none-the-less.

So what does that mean? It means that I can go and go and go, but when I’ve run out of adrenaline, I’ve run out and I have to go into my cave."

I never have visitors because I am an introvert.

"I literally tell my friends (and family) to NEVER show up on my doorstep without calling me first. My home is my safe place.... I don't get all buddy buddy with my neighbors anyway. If I get all buddy buddy, I'll lose my safe place."

Find more artists like bob's day off at Myspace Music

juggle by bob's day off 



Juggle these thoughts, the every day life 
Living in joy, or the struggle and strife 

Consider the options, make your choice 
Decide to be silent or raise your voice 
Bouncing in rhythms we move through the yard 
Ready to fight, or to let down your guard 

Alone in the world 
A world without sound 
Determine your fate 
By standing your ground 
Having a vision, setting your goals 
Speaking in volumes of truths to be told 
Freeing your passion, freeing your soul 
Of what kept you captive, made you lose control 

I know a place 
Where we can go 
Your porcelain face 
And this heart of stone

Consider the options, make your choice 
Decide to be silent or raise your voice 
Bouncing in rhythms we move through the yard 
Ready to fight, or to let down your guard 

Juggle these thoughts, the everyday life 

I know a place (Consider the options, make your choice) Where we can go (Decide to be silent or raise your voice) Your porcelain face (Bouncing in rhythms we move through the yard) And this heart of stone (Ready to fight or to let down your guard)

You think I freed you
But I just opened the door.
Anyone could have.

He said, "I can be an emotionally detached asshole." She later said, "You're being an emotionally detached asshole," to which he replied, "You're being a unreasonably demanding woman with obviously low self esteem."

http://new.music.yahoo.com/melissa-etheridge/tracks/this-war-is-over--1082867

Fear

Essay 4: Fear

Take a deep breath, I think to myself, with my pulse racing and my heart beating so hard I can feel it in my temples. Sounds from the hallway filter through the closed door, and I know I shouldn't be here in this side room; if I am found, they will assume I was sleeping on the job. A panic attack will sound like an excuse to them, and a poor one at best. But I have to get control. My presentation starts in less than an hour, and my hands are shaking.

I take a few deep breaths, and I can feel the air shuddering in and out as my shakes and racing heart threaten to overwhelm me. I feel cold all over, almost numb but am aware that I am also sweating. I shut my eyes, lean my head back, and recall the things I have read and learned about controlling anxiety attacks. I get a firmer mental grip and force myself to clear my head. I picture my head as a place filled with nothing, only blackness, and focus on that image until my breathing slows.

Then I begin my deep breathing, inhaling in for two counts, out for two counts. I breathe in and out. I narrow my focus only to the darkness I imagine behind my eyes and the sound of my breathing. Some of these techniques I learned from researching sleep disorders, since my rampant insomnia has thrown me. Some I learned back in college during a class on Buddhism where we were taught meditation techniques. A few I have picked up purely from experience. I use every method now, one after the other, to calm the clamoring in my mind.

In a while, I will face an auditorium of my peers and superiors. I will give an admittedly short presentation on new changes regarding the handling of infectious waste materials. My voice will quiver, I will speak too quickly, and I will end on the verge of nervous tears. But these exercises right now will at least get me there and get me through. I won't back out, or whisper through my slides, or choke up and get only part of the information out there. My fear used to control me entirely, but I am learning to control my fear.

The Sirens

An essay I wrote for Creative Writing this quarter.

The Sirens

Tigerlilly usually hears the sirens before I do, her long Spaniel ears perking up, her head swinging towards the front of the house and then the back, trying to determine which door to protect. Her tail swings in wide arcs, waving her black fur like a flag. Her behavior is what alerts me to the sound; I see her head cocking side to side and then my own ears begin to tune in. I probably wouldn't even notice the noon siren if she didn't hear it first, my human brain quickly and subconsciously deciding for me which sounds to filter out and which will get attention. Lilly's animal instincts still treat each new sound as an alarm, and her short memory can't retain the information that once a week, every Wednesday at noon, she hears this noise but that no danger follows.

As the sirens rise in volume, reassuring all of Columbus that they would warn us if a tornado ever threatened our homes, Lilly's high female howl raises with it. Having realized she can't find the source of the noise, Lilly simply drops her butt where she is and lifts her nose to the ceiling, commiserating with the mournful cry of the siren. I imagine Lilly using her voice to tell the other, mysterious canine that she does hear his story and joins him in his telling of it.

Briefly, Lilly glances over the room to Rosemary, lying on their pillow under the desk, to see if Rose also hears this sound and will howl with her, but the older dog has no interest. Her Cocker ears only perk now at the sound of food, although her black nub of a tail wiggles whenever I look at her. As the sirens rise again, sounding simultaneously across the city, Lilly howls along. Her cry is loud, and long, and sad. The sirens don't make me feel that way, but her howl does, reaching something inside me that perhaps is still in touch with my animal instincts after all. I go to sit next to her and comfort her, putting my arms around this puppy who somehow manages to match the volume of the city sirens from her little body.

Then Rose does rise, and comes to sit on the other side of me. Even though these sirens pose no threat, she still fills her duty as my companion. So we sit, the three of us girls living on our own in the city, on the floor of my dining room, and listen to the sound of the sirens.

Divorcette Playlist

This is just a collection of stuff I have listened to for the past months, some for the words, some because it made me dance, some for personal reasons. Starts out all breaky-uppy, then starts having fun. Rock.

Seether - Careless Whisper

We could've been so good together

We could've lived this dance forever

Now who's gonna dance with me?

Blue October - Should be Loved

Stop staring, you’re the reason I feel so unhappy all the time. 

Look, I’ve given you everything I know how. 

You're standing on the top of my shoe, 

You're keeping me from gaining ground, yeah.

Look, I’m sorry if you feel like I let you down.

I should be held at night,

That I know is right. 

I can't breathe when you’re around.

Sanctus Real - Change Me

Did I break your heart, by straying so far

From what you had planned for my life?

Blaqk Audio - The Fear of Being Found

I feel see through

Can you see through me?

I can't change a thing, can't explain why I

Never felt it, not even the first time

Tegan and Sara - Nineteen

I told you

I feel you in my heart,

And I don't even know you

Now we're saying

Bye, bye, bye

Now we're saying Bye, bye, bye

I was nineteen

State of Shock - Money Honey

If I had more money honey

Would you love me, love me, love me

If I wasn’t just somebody like me

Anberlin - PaperThin Hymn

I thought you said forever

Over and over

A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

Pop Evil - Hero

I won't be, I won't be your hero

Hinder - Without You

Without you, I live it up a little more every day

Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently

I didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end

When I watched you walk away, well, I never thought I'd say

I'm fine without you

Blue October - X Amount of Words

Your solar bipolar panic disorder

Seems harder and harder and harder still

You try to control it

Now deleted and defeated I will stand on my own

Audioslave - Be Yourself

Someone gets excited in a chapel yard, catches a bouquet

Another lays a dozen white roses on grave

To be yourself is all that you can do

Oleander - Why I'm Here

And I cant love you anymore

I'm scared of the sound, of it

Hinder - Up All Night

Now she's all in, the room is spinnin

Probly shouldn't have shot that Jamison

We're gonna be up all night

Gonna take you for a ride

We're gonna be up all night

Get it on til the mornin light

All American Rejects - Gives You Hell

Now where's your picket fence love?

And where's that shiny car?

And did it ever get you far?

Kid Cudi f. MGMT and Ratatat- Pursuit of Happiness

People tol' me slow my roll, I'm screamin out fuck.that.

Imma do just what I want lookin ahead no lookin back

Eminem f. Nate Dogg - Shake That

There she goes

Shakin that ass on the floor

Blaqk Audio - Semiotic Love

Hooked on a star, in love with a satellite

DJ Moxy - Main Session 3 from Passion '08

DJ fuckin Moxy...